Day 17 {our last walk}

We got news this morning that tomorrow she’ll be getting a cast and we’ll be heading home. It was a sweet moment. We were actually on skype with the boys when the nurse came in, so I got to tell them via skype instead of over the phone. There were tears from adults and kids involved 🙂

I spent all day giddy and thinking about how it was the last for everything. She wanted to go for a walk….our last walk.

I like to stop and look out the big windows, but she just wanted to walk. I haven’t mentioned before, but we are on the oncology and heart floor since she was here for a longer stay and isn’t contagious. As we walk the halls we get to see other patients….little patients battling really big battles. Today I was thinking more about the other patients than I was about our walk. Tomorrow we will leave. In a few months it will be as if we were never here. We’ve been here long enough that I’ve seen some kids leave and come back for chemo treatments. Little heads should be bald because of a bad haircut not because of a battle with cancer. Cancer sucks. Today outside one door was a “Transplant” sign. Thinking about the family on the other side of that door shattered my heart. Sickness sucks.

I couldn’t help but push my girl around the floor and wonder why is it we have it so good. Here I was with a little girl singing If You’re Happy and You Know It while waving at nurses…other moms were praying their child would receive a much needed transplant or hoping that this round of chemo would work. It was our last walk. It was a bittersweet walk.

If all goes as planned we will leave sometime later tomorrow. My heart is full for our family. My heart is sick for those here that don’t get to go to sleep tonight giddy with excitement that tomorrow brings a homecoming. I’m so thankful for an incredible children’s hospital. I hate that children’s hospitals need to exist.

That is a bit heavy for a “happy” post, but my heart is heavy….thank you for your emails, prayers, comments, gifts and notes of encouragement. I’m working on one more post before we leave, I’m really excited about it…to be posted in a few hours 🙂