tear stained cheeks

Littlest Brother is a great sleeper…wonderful sleeper…he is also a fan of using a pacifier to go to sleep. This was the week we said “goodbye” to the pacifier. The night we took it away he cried and cried and cried…my heart broke for him. He is too young understand the reason it is gone or why I would take it away. For him all he knows is that someone he loves and trusted took away something that he loves and something that provides him great comfort. As I sat downstairs listening to his cries and each time I went in to kiss and comfort his tear stained cheeks, my heart just broke. After about an hour the room was silent and he was peacefully sleeping. It made me think of all the times in my own life that I don’t have answers for the “why’s?”. I am so grateful that despite my tears and my crying out in the midst of not understanding circumstances around me that I can rest peacefully knowing I have a Heavenly Father that knows the answers to my “why’s?” and He loves me – more than my mind could ever comprehend – He loves me.