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my boys…4, 6, 8

I try to take some posed shots of the kids each year around the times of their birthdays. Well, I’m a couple months behind with the boys. Time kept slipping away, so I finally just shot a few around the house. I think I spent a max of 5 minutes with each boy. They were all dirty and in messy play clothes. I had them change clothes, wipe off all visible dirt and endure photos for a few minutes each. My oldest and youngest son were cooperative…the middle one made me work a lot harder.

The boys don’t appear on my blog as much as FireCracker. They don’t beg me to take their picture like she does! I can’t imagine life without boys. Though I will soon have two daughters, I think I’ll always consider myself a ‘boy mom’.  Goodness do I love these little guys….but don’t tell them I called them “little”!

My boys…8, 6, 4.


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8 is a hard age to photograph, at least with this guy. I often resort to letting him jump off things.


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The majority of the shots were awkward forced smiles or his random faces.


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He thought out this series. Totally Cool Dude.

Then there is my 4 year old. Still too young for the awkward self aware phase, but old enough to choose to be goofy or serious.

He brought a caterpillar to his session. I convinced him to let the little guy go.


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Totally him.

He is learning the odd faces from his big brother.

And like his big brother, he dictated to me what he wanted too.

Then there is my 6 year old charmer. Crazy photogenic….but was very much not in the mood for pictures. I’ll share about that tomorrow.

All of these photos were shot with my Canon 85mm f/1.8 lens.

And totally unrelated: I am WAY behind in emails. If you have wrote in May, I am working through those.

Allison - ADORABLE – your boys are so awesome! Great pictures!

Tara A - so precious….

amanda torres - Congratulations! You are behind in emails which means you spent more time in REAL life. Awesome feat!

Corey Moortgat - “Still too young for the awkward self aware phase” -Yes, both my boys went through this phase at exactly the same age- five years old. From age five until age six, I couldn’t get a natural smile for anything! Thankfully, my six-year-old has outgrown it, but I’m struggling with my still five-year-old!

These shots are beautiful of your boys though. Even if the rest of the shots of number #2 are terrible, the one you posted should make up for all the rest!

Whitney - Wow…those boys are going to be heartbreakers! Sooooo handsome!!

Eva - New follower here….these are lovely. You really captured the personality of your boys.

Amy - so cute! where did you get that sweater-vest on the youngest boy?

amy jupin - i see so much of you in each of them.
and that makes me so happy.
boys rock.

Shannon Phillips - These boys are so precious and I love these photos. So so great!
Keegan said “Look Mama, it is my friends with the goats!”

Carol - I have the most handsome grandsons in the world. They all are perfect. How I love them.

Suzanne - What handsome little guys! And what lovely memories you have of them – smiles and funny faces and all!

Ko - Ah boys! Getting my boys to look at the camera and smile at the same time is impossible! I would love to hear what you talk about with them while your shooting. Any tips on getting a “normal” expression?

Y’all are a gorgeous family! My goodness!

Alice H - Try taking pictures of my 11 year old son!! So much work!! These pictures are so cute and you can see their personality in the photos. Your boys are very handsome.

angie webb - Your boys are all such charmers. You are so lucky! Your six year old just melts my heart though. Everytime I see pictures of him I melt.

N - Love that you do this every year! You should do a blog with the photos complied from each year of each child.

Steph - Your kids are all crazy-gorgeous and handsome, but you are right, your middle son is photogenic as heck…he’s beautiful, good luck fighting the girls off!! Oh man you’re going to have that teenager house where eeeeveryone congregates, too! Cute cute cute pictures, thanks for sharing!

rutheah rodehorst - oh my goodness…there is too much handsomeness going on! what sweet boys. that last pic kills me! adorable.

giozi - I understand your pefectly, ha ha ha my daughter doesn’t want photos and te little one some day yes and some day not.

My daughter is 4y 8m I would like to be the mother in law of one of our children ha ha ha ;)

jamie - All of your children are adorable! I have been wanting to get the 85mm lens… I think these pics. may have me shopping this weekend!

Susan - Your children are beautiful, but #2 is angelic. He looks like an old soul. Good luck Mom, you are going to need some crazy skills to keep the girls away!

Lynn Brumm - Dreamy….just plain dreamy!!!! The first pic of your 4 yr old made me melt! You and Chris create some extremely gorgeous creatures!

nancy - oh they are lovely!!! Their wives will be so happy to have them someday, as they hold them up to their own sons and compare the features.
Keep ‘em coming!
nancy
ps-My mark II will be here on Friday! I knew you’d appreciate my excitement!

Wendy - Fantastic! I work at a portrait studio … 10 yr old boys are tough. An 8 yr old still chuckles when you say “toilet”. :)

Amy - These photos are wonderful. Your boys are adorable. I just got my first DSLR camera for my first Mother’s Day! My husband surprised me. :-) I got a Canon Rebel t2i. I’m loving it so far, but still need a lot of practice.

Ellie - *laughs* My parents and friends are always trying to get me in front of the camera, but I’d rather be behind it, taking the pictures. That being said, I love how you captured your boys– even if they have their awkward faces on, these will bring back such good memories.

On a side note, did you know that YoungHouseLove mentioned you TWICE in today’s morning post?!? Yay, Ashley! :)

~Ellie

Seriously Sassy Mama - I have three girls the same ages as your three boys. We stopped after three, but I would have loved to have one more.

Aja - Precious boys! Makes me want a few boys of my own!

Jenny - As a mom to three little boys and a girl as well, I can totally relate! ;)
Your boys are so handsome! great pics as usual. :)

Rachael - They are gorgeous!! Love the locations you chose, especially the one sitting in the grass. With my 6 and 3 year old boys, I have to resort to telling them I will play tickle chase to get them to take pictures, and if that doesn’t work, usually a lollipop will :)

tracy a - Is it just me or does your 6 yr old look just like his daddy? Such handsome boys!!

Sarah - Not sure what you mean by a “boy mom.” If your mother said that, what would you think she meant?

Trae Kendrick - Ashley, the pics of your boys are adorable. It makes me long for the days when my two were that age. Gosh, they grow up so fast! I don’t know how you could possibly have time for questions, but if you do I have one. You are so wonderful to always share what lenses you have and your camera settings, but my question is even more basic. How do you decide which lens for what??

Sister and her cousins

So…last night Chris and I celebrated our 10 year anniversary with a photo session. Granted, we are nearly approaching our 11 year anniversary, but better late than never. I’ll talk more about the session and why we did it at a later date, but here is a peek my sweet friend & photographer Shannon sent me. This is just from her phone and it makes me so happy. I can’t wait to see what the ones with her ‘real’ camera look like. I wore cowboy boots and a flower garland – it was pretty dreamy…kind of like my man.

And totally unrelated ~ I took some photos of my new niece a little while back. I didn’t want to post them because my sister was using them for her birth announcement. Well, the announcements have been mailed. I’m a proud aunt. I thought I’d share the settings. All the photos were taken with my 24-70mm f/2.8 lens.

ISO 160, f/2.8, 1/200

Skinny little newborn legs…oh how I enjoy a good baby stretch! ~ ISO 200, f/2.8, 1/160

Of course we had to get some pictures of the sisters together! ~ ISO 200, f/2.8, 1/125

ISO 200, f/2.8, 1/125

I thought about sharing some more cute pictures of my niece or ending the post with that one of the two girls. Then I could pretend I’m a photographer that just so easily gets photos of a toddler and newborn together. But, that isn’t so much me. How about a look at what the majority of the attempts to get a sibling shot looked like?

ISO 320, f/2.8, 1/125

ISO 320, f/2.8, 1/125

And, you don’t think FireCracker was going to miss out on pictures with a baby do you? We tried for some cousin shots. ~ ISO 500, f/2.8, 1/160

ISO 500, f/2.8, 1/200

ISO 500, f/2.8, 1/200

ISO 500, f/2.8, 1/200

ISO 500, f/2.8, 1/200

Toddlers and babies are hard work! We got a couple ‘keepers’ that I’ll let Lesley share if she wants to…I kind of like the “outtakes” myself.

Andy - at least the snack cup matches :) they are cute. good job

Andy - and love you guys pic. awesome

Tara A - Good morning, that is such a beautiful picture of you and Chris. Have a wonderful anniversary and a beautiful day. Tara

amanda torres - The baby stretch pic got me. My little guy is growing too fast. I miss his skinny newborn legs :(

Heather - Oh. My. Goodness! Love the beautiful pic of you two and those of your precious nieces. Gorgeousness. Thanks for including the outtakes…definitely makes me feel better about the craziness of trying to capture my two together. I laughed out load when I saw Firecracker holding the babies nose, and then laughed again, when I scrolled back through. That is too funny! Thanks for sharing. Blessings!

N - Unbelievable pictures as always! You’ve inspired me to have some pictures taken with just my husband on a date night. It looks like a dream.

MixedMolly - I love the outtakes. Firecracker looks like she is almost ready to be your assistant! “Now move your head just a little to the left”….

Jason Rosenberg - Gorgeous pictures (and kids)!

Can I ask how you get their eyes to “pop” like that (espeically Fire-Cracker’s)? Any post-production, or just good lighting/focussing/other?

Shannon Phillips - Love love love! I had such a wonderful time last night and so did Keegan! I can’t wait to load an work on your “real” pictures.
I just love the cousin pics and how much firecracker loves babies.

Emily - Your Couple shot is magical!!! Absolutely precious one is Firecracker pinching the nose! That is so very much my 2 boys… 4 and 2 months!

Kristin S - When you put that first pic on Instagram last night, I inhaled. What a shot! From a phone???

So glad you took the time to do this shoot. You won’t regret it.

Seriously Sassy Mama - Oh how I love sweet babies. I love seeing pictures of a husband and wife that are so completely in love with each other!

Brooke - She looks a lot like sweet paisley did! I always prefer outtakes,,

Kimber C. - Oh seeing your “outtakes” makes me feel so much better about how my pictures turn out with neices and nephews! Ha it’s so fun but lots of work for those few awesome “keepers!” these are precious though!

Nath - Beautiful pics!

Krystina - When shooting pictures of the children do you ever use back button focusing? Or do you find it too awkward/unhelpful?

Kate @ Songs Kate Sang - Oh Ashley, your 10th anniversary shoot looks so dreamy! You are so beautiful.

Melle M. - ashley and your world with family are magical and fabulous!!

Debbie C - The picture of you and Chris is so dreamy! Beautiful props. Happy 10th and 11th Anniversary!

ko - Stunning pictures! Both photo shoots looks like a great success! You’ve got me wondering if I could talk my rough and tumble Marine husband into a photo shoot like yours! So dreamy!

Ernie - hi ashley! thanks for keeping it real with the out takes :) i had a question, i know you use radlab. do you mind sharing the recipes you used for the baby and nieces pics? did you use any other adjustments in photoshop? thanks for your time and awesome blog!

Jamie - Oh I so know how this goes! I did 3 baby sessions yesterday and I was exhausted by the end!!!
But those few keepers are worth their weight in gold so to speak!
I love the out takes too…

Tia - Love the photos! Can’t wait to see more of the anniversary shoot, it looks like a lovely time. I was also wondering about the baby photos, do you do custom white balance or auto most of the time? I’m glad to see the outtakes, always makes me feel better to know I’m not alone in having multiple shots of non cooperation :)

Leslie - Those are some cute babies:) WOW! What a DREAMY photoshoot of you and your husband – can’t wait to see more!

stacey - these are SO cute! i’m with you, i love me some outtakes…makes me happy knowing i’m not the only one that gets the majority of their shots like this :) not that you have time, but if you have any suggestions/tips on while balance, i’m all ears! of all the things i struggle with…that bad boy is one of them! much appreciated! xoxo

kelly - your pictures are always so much fun. and the one of you and your husband so SO dreamy.

Seamingly Sarah - 1. now i want to go out and buy a white dress
2. love the one where firecracker is holding her little cousin’s nose!

giozi - Your nieces are beautifuls. Love the first picture is so romantic. This year I did 10 years too. I want to se the whole session !!!

Bon @ A Golden Afternoon - Such a lovely family :) I love the brightness of these…so peaceful.

RobyGiup - I LOVE the first picture, you are so lovely together. Happy (late) 10th anniversary!
And the pictures with the sisters/cousins are wonderful, you did a great job!

Carmen - thanks for the giggle with the out takes. Today I’ve been trying to get a nice picture of my two littlies for their Grandma, and I didn’t manage to get even one! Will have to try again tomorrow. Thanks for keeping it real… even though your photos are still amazing!!!

Jenny - The picture of you and your husband is breathtaking. Are those the outfits Firecracker and your niece wore a few years back for cousin pictures? Adorable!

Sadee - Your anniversary photo is so magical! Can’t wait to see the rest of them. And your photos of the kiddos are wonderful as always!

AshleyAnn - Jenny – Yep, those are the same outfits!

Natalie @ TheShadyAcre - I love these! And that shot of you and Chris really makes me want to take some with my husband for our 10th!

mary - My gosh, these children are gorgeous, your photos are breathtaking. And the one of you and your husband? Dreamy, and with a phone? I can barely take those with my DSLR!I am about to push the big BUY button on this same lens, and this kind of seals it for me. Thanks for sharing your settings. What I do wonder, is how you get everyone in a group photo, like the 3 girls, in such sharp focus? I’m a big FAIL in that department. I always thought you had to have a smaller aperture, like an 8 to get more than one in great focus. Who do you focus on? And I assume that having them on the same plane helps, but I swear someone is always a little out of focus for me! I would love to hear your take on that!

Pat - Oh my gosh, the pictures are so good!! I love sibling photos and they were all precious – the “good” ones as well as the “real life” ones.

Hillary - Those matching outfits look familiar! :) love it!

Amie - WOW these are awesome. I, too, am fond of the outtakes. Also, thank you… like a lot… for posting your camera settings. I have never played around with ISO like that (500??) but obviously I should.

You’re awesome!

Mother’s Day is hard.

The four kids in my home had been asking all last week, “Is it Mother’s Day yet?”

They were excited to celebrate me.

They snuck hidden handmade gifts under their beds.

They giggled behind closed doors about their plans for me…their mom.

My heart is full.

It was Mother’s Day weekend 7 years ago we lost our second child. Twelve weeks in my womb. The heartbeat could no longer be heard. I remember walking around that Mother’s Day with a little boy at my feet and a baby in my womb that was no longer growing. My poor family – how do you say “Happy Mother’s Day” to a woman still carrying a child she lost?

It was Mother’s Day four years ago that my precious grandma, the one my oldest daughter is named after, passed away.

Despite the painful memories that Mother’s Day brings – my cup overflows and my lips speak gratitude to God for the gift of motherhood.

There are not adequate words to express the joy I have in being a mother. The immense thankfulness I feel for knowing my children.

My home is full of laughter and a bunch of goofballs. I’ve got it good.

And yet, in its fullness, I know there are depths of pain and hurt Mother’s Day brings so many.

I’ve never endured infertility.

I’ve never held a child and then lost that precious one.

I’ve never known a broken relationship with my own mom.

I know for many women, this past weekend was dreaded.

With flowers and cards and pictures celebrating the gift of motherhood….many ache. Many ache for the children they don’t have. Many ache for their own mother. Many ache. Many hurt. And while I cherish the treasures that my little ones gave me, while I enjoyed being celebrated as their mom…I so hurt for those that were hoping to just make it through the weekend.

Mother’s Day is bittersweet.

I hurt for so many women that feel such deep pain on a day when moms are esteemed.

This Mother’s Day I physically ached for my daughter…the one alone in a metal crib with wood boards for a bed. And while I ached for her, I thought of her first mother. A woman I know nothing about. A woman I am forever knitted too – we share a daughter. This year neither of us get to be with our girl. Last year, she carried our daughter in her womb when in the US we celebrated Mother’s Day. Did she know then that their future would not be together? This year our daughter does not have either of her moms holding her.

I have one photo of my daughter smiling. Though it is only a photo, I imagine that smile lights up a room. My heart is broken that her first mother never got to see that smile. Adoption is beautiful, but it begins in brokenness.

I don’t yet know how my youngest daughter will feel regarding how her life story began. But, I know how I feel. I know I want to recognize and honor her first mom. I want her to be celebrated in our home – she gave our daughter a priceless gift. I will get a lifetime to give our daughter kisses & hugs. I’ll get to give her applause, security, safety. I will get to give her tickle induced laughs and pink dresses and water balloons to throw at her big brothers. I’ll have a lifetime of giving to her, but there is one thing I could never give her. The gift of life. Her first mom gave her that and I owe a debt of gratitude on which a price can never be placed.

A balloon, a letter, a prayer and a hope for the mother that gave my daughter the gift of life….every year on Mother’s Day.


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Aaren - I celebrate wonderful mom’s like you Ashley. Bless your heart.

Candice Forte - Thank you, Ashley, for that wonderful post!

annalea - beautiful post, ashley. i always feel conflicted on mother’s day too and bittersweet is definitely a word for it. praying for your littlest girl and hoping she comes home to you soon. xoxo

Kimberly Troth - Beautiful post Ashley! I’m so sorry for all of your loss with Mother’s Day. Can’t wait for you to bring home your little girl!! Praying the day comes FAST for you and your family.

Kathie - Very sweet! This my first mother’s day we had a picnic in the park to celebrate but my boys (twins) are in the NICU and will be for a long time. So even though I loved being celebrated as a new mommy I just wanted my boys there. We run into people all the time who know I had the boys and want to know where they are or see them right there and I have to pull out my phone and show them my photos. Then they want to know when they will be coming home and I don’t have an answer because we don’t know. They were 14 weeks early each just over two pounds at birth. Right now I just long for them to be home and not a half hour away in the care of someone else, I wanna hold them and calm them in my arms instead of watch them cry through plastic and feel helpless because I can’t pick them up outta that bed. I know I atleast can go see them in person but I feel your pain. The nice joy is that soon enough our babies will be in our arms and we will celebrate many more days with them. Love following your story and now finally being a mommy myself after years of being told I would never be able to have my own kids to having two perfect little boys even early I understand your pains and joys. Stay strong and know many out there care for you and your family.

Chrissy - Thank you so much for that….I have had so few words for this mother’s day, yet somehow you were able to give yours to my heart. Thank you and so many prayers for your little one. XO

stacey [whatever is lovely] - beautiful post. thank you so much for sharing. mother’s day is very bittersweet for me too – mostly bitter, really. 5 years ago just days before mother’s day my dad died. last year days before mother’s day i got in a bad hit and run car accident. for over 2 years now i’ve ached to be a mother, and am currently in the waiting process of a domestic adoption. mother’s day feels like peeking through a window at all your friends having a party while you’re grounded and can’t go. :)

i love following your family’s story and can’t wait to see your youngest daughter home with you!!

Alice H - What a beautiful post. Like so many of your others. You are just truly amazing.

And off subject – your hair looks really good! Perfect length, color, and so cute being curly.

RachelC - So raw….so true. What a beautiful gift to give your daughter. The gift of loving her birth mother, so that one day, she will know that it’s ok to love her too. That’s powerful love.

Midwest Magnolia - Melissa Lewis - This is so beautifully stated Ashley. Thank you for sharing such intimate stories about your life all to encourage and inspire others. It seems we have some similar emotions on mother’s day!

Allison - beautiful
many tears here, many tears

Amy - This is such a beautiful post, and brings tears to my eyes.

Tammy - Ashley, As always, your post has touched me and moved me to tears. I am so grateful for your beautiful blog. Thank you.

Heather - Thank you for such a very sweet post!!

Seamingly Sarah - You are so full of compassion and God’s love for others. May that inhabit your heart forever.

Esther Cheng - Thanks Ashley for reminding us mother’s day can be bittersweet. May god bless your family!

Melissa @ Loving this crazy life! - You’re post always make my heart melt. I look forward to reading every single one of them. I also look forward to seeing what silly photo of Firecracker you’re gonna post next. Wish we could get our little ones to play together. I think it would be a riot! {Hugs}

heather - perfection.
YOU are so loved.
xo

Hannah - Ashley, Thank you so much for writing this. My husband and I have been waiting to get pregnant for two years. It’s the hardest battle I’ve ever fought and Mother’s Day is especially hard for me. You made me cry (the good kind)…thank you for acknowledging *me* this mothers day. And what a beautiful heart you have and what an amazing tradition for your youngest. Your grace amazes me. :)

tracy a - thanks for sharing this Ashley. I remember so clearly standing in your kitchen just over 2 years ago, the pain of losing my own tiny child still so vivid. I was so thankful you pulled me aside to share a bit of your story. This post will, undoubtedly, touch other broken hearts. Blessings friend.

theinadvertent farmer - On mother’s day I gather my five kiddos close and rejoice in there places in my heart…I also grieve at the same time for the twin girls that were stillborn at 22 weeks that I have not held in my arms for these past 8 years.

The best mother’s day ever will be in heaven when all 7 of my kids, including my daughters Faith and Hope will get to be not be just in my heart but in my arms! I can’t wait for that day…

As an adoptive mama my mind also drifted to my sweet daughter’s young, brave and selfless birth mother who had the courage not to abort her but to give her life and then give her to me…a sacrifice I cannot imagine. That is a testament to just how much a mother can love.

Happy Mother’s Day Ashley and thank you for sharing your joy and heartache with all of us…it is in the sharing we all heal our broken hearts just a little. Much love, Kim

Amanda - Praising God for you and your family. My relationship with my maternal grandmother recently fell apart and that weighed heavily on my heart this Mother’s Day. But I also rejoiced with my own mom and many of my friends who celebrated their first Mother’s Day.
As an adopted kid – I respect the memory you already place on your daughter’s birth mother. I’ve never celebrated her on Mother’s Day. My mom has always been enough. But I am grateful that my birth mother gave me life and that even though my story started out so painfully – she began the journey that lead me to my forever family.

Liz - Beautiful thoughts…and so true on Mother’s Day. Thank you for sharing the not-so-pretty truths about Mother’s Day. It blessed my heart. Praying for your little girl to be home soon! :)

Siobhan - Thankyou for sharing your heart Ashley , I’m do sorry that this day brings reminders that sadden you and I completely understand. I myself have 5 beautiful amazing children that celebrate me as mom but my own mother is a meth addict homeless and living on the streets no where to be found while I raise her daughter, my sister. I have always struggled with mothers day and pray that someday I won’t but I don’t know if that will happen.

Jess - Ashely, Ashley, Ashley. I’ve been reading your blog for a long, long time, but this is the first time I’ve left a comment. I’m not really sure why. I mean, I’ve talked about you in real life before, but I guess I never really felt compelled to join in the conversation, until now, because I’ve been looking around for things that acknowledge the stuff you’ve covered here–grief, loss, broken relationships–on Mother’s Day, and this one, from you, means so much to me.

Why? Because I’m not a Christian, but I think you’d love me anyway. More and more, not just as I read your blog, but as I reach out, and allow others into my life (atheists, Hindus, Christians alike) I realize that there is no “us & them” there’s just us. Did you see the Hairpin piece entitled “What I Meant to Do”? It sums things up much more beautifully than I attempted to do with my own “I hate Mother’s Day” blog post. And then this morning, to finally make my way here, as I always do each week, to see that your sentiments and Simone’s echo each other.

Just, thanks.

Dana - Ashley, thank you for a sensitive and appropriate post. You are a beautiful mama!
Love, Dana

Sarah Crosby - just lovely. what a neat idea.

my husband and i are too young right now, to adopt internationally but it is something that has been on my heart for as long as I can remember. love seeing your journey.

i pray often for our future childrens birth momma. i know that a lot of times in poverty stricken countries it isn’t because they don’t want their child; its because they do not have the means to provide for them. i know it’s not always the case, but can you imagine? so heart breaking. sometimes giving them up is the most selfless act they can do.

thanks for giving a voice to the orphan. may the Lord bless you and your family.

Emily - Happy Mother’s Day

KImberly - Wow Ashely, so beautiful.

MixedMolly - Yesterday, I was thinking that Mother’s day is really hard for some women. Facebook was riddled with gushy Mother’s day status updates. But that gushi-ness is not experienced by everyone. I love that you acknowledged that. I also love your perspective on adoption. Christ is pleased with your attitude toward your daughter’s mother. Preach it sister!

Martina - I wrote a blog post yesterday on my first “official” Mother’s Day with a similar title and theme, “Mother’s Day Hurts.” Instead of my first moms day being just a wonderful, happy day, I ended up feeling heart broken for my 10 month old daughter’s first mom, her biological mother, and the great pain she must feel on Mother’s Day. Indeed, adoption is beautiful but is rooted in brokenness. I pray for her and think about her all the time, so grateful that she gave my daughter life.

Anne - Beautiful post. Thanks for sharing! Last Mother’s Day our son was in China, waiting for us to travel. Nannies changed his diaper, fed him and tucked him in that day. I am thankful this year, he is home, celebrating Mother’s Day with his forever family. It is a tangible reminder to me that Mother’s Day is not just about celebrating mom, but about me celebrating the privilege I have in raising my 3 boys – just like your most mentioned.

Robyn Farmer - So incredibly beautiful.

Glenda Childers - Such high and low emotions on one day. I am sorry for your losses and so happy for your sweet kids.

I liked it yesterday at church, as we honors mom’s we also prayed for those that couldn’t have children, lost children, lost mom’s etc. It just felt right.

Beautiful post.

Kerry - Firecracker had my kids & me laughing UPROARIOUSLY!

Jennifer - I feel like you got Mother’s Day spot on. While I am thrilled to spend the day with my 3 kids, my heart aches fiercely for the two little ones I never got to meet. The last two Mother’s Days have come right after I lost a baby in the second trimester so it’s been hard. I take comfort in your words that somewhere out there someone else understand how I can be so happy yet so sad at the same time.

Jessica P - I love your heart, and I’m glad it’s full even when it’s hurting. I can’t wait until your sweet, youngest daughter is home with her family. On a completely different note, that picture of Firecracker is perfection. So funny!

Laura Chavous - But you have a certain future with your daughter. And the days without her are numbered. So take heart :)

Jenny - You have such a beautiful soul. Your children are blessed to have you as their mother.

Kate @ Songs Kate Sang - Dearest Ashley, I’m so sorry. I didn’t know about your miscarriage. I love you dearly and I am praying for you.

Brooke Leigh - I didn’t log on & see this post til now. & even days after mother’s day it brings tears to my eyes. Not because I have ever endured any of that pain, but because I am lucky. My heart aches as well, I hope someday, the void in those who dread this day is filled with joy.

Jules - Your daughter has THE BEST faces I’ve ever seen… so adorable.

So sorry for the sadness that brings memories flooding back on Mother’s Day… but with all the silliness that you shared in photos, surely it makes your heart swell with love!

Kara M - I spent some time on Mother’s Day praying for my baby’s bio mom as well. We don’t believe our child is born yet. So, I just prayed for her as she faces the brokenness of adoption. I can’t imagine the pain she will face. I pray she relies on God for healing.

I like the balloon idea!

NICHOLE - You are such a kind and thoughtful woman. Your blog makes me laugh, cry and aspire to be a better woman myself. Your baby’s Birth Mother would be so relieved to know her daughter is going to your warm home. I’m glad I stumbled upon you ;)

stacey - i can hear your words coming from your heart. that simple fact makes me smile, even if the topic is painful. i adore how you can take something painful or uncomfortable and flip it around into something full of gratitude and wonder! i strive for this daily, but you seem to have it down…thank you for sharing your inspiring words and encouraging us all to shift perspectives! xoxo

Bethanyblntn - Thank you for writing this. The Lord always knows what to place in you heart to write about and you always seem to write it so well. I cried reading this but it is heart warming at the same time. Song has two wonderful mothers and she is blessed to be able to have you all, if the Lord is willing.

Angela - I read on FB (not sure if it’s true) that the day before Mother’s Day is becoming known as Birthmother Day. Regardless…I love the idea of the balloon you sent up in thoughts of your newest daughter’s Birthmom.

We adopted our beautiful son at 3 days old…just over a year ago. Adoption is so close to my heart. I am so excited for your new journey!

Angela - My husband and I are in the paperwork process of our own adoption journey right now – after infertility and the blessing of our daughter, we are hopeful to add another life to our home – your posts on adoption are very inspiring for me. This post – particularly – spoke feelings I’ve never been able to communicate. Mother’s Day is a beautiful gift in my life, but it brings pain as well. Thank you for saying what I’ve been trying to frame into words.

Laura @Ms Smartie Pants - Your honesty takes my breath away and brings tears to my eyes, what a lucky little girl to have you for a mom!

Esther Shokair - thank you.

Amie - I am very much not the mushy sort but this almost brought me to tears. You have such a huge heart.

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